Sunday 16 September 2012

您如何对我

记得,您如何对我
记得,您又如何服侍您的好媳妇,您的宝贝儿子,您的千金
媳妇,得罪做月婆,您立即扑过去,还必须老早天还没亮,帮了她好几天,连生意都没做。难道人家的妈妈爸爸有在,您就特别照顾吗?

接着,媳妇做完月子回娘家居住。一天,媳妇父母又事外出,您又每做生意,扑去照顾媳妇和孙子。

就连孙子病了,她老人家也紧张到上人外家门去。

另外,女儿肚泻。就说要立刻去看她,一天都拨了好几回的电话。担心到团团转。

我是外人,就如姐夫所说的不通姓氏的。这回我领会到了。

难道媳妇小产,做家婆的是不该到访及过问的吗?

我只懂,待遇有如360度的不同咯。没过问。只有那第一天人流后的一餐。只有那么多。

我在想,我在他们家做得不够好吗?还是做什么都不顺眼,不领情。

我,要学习坚强,学会自己照顾自己。还有,非常重要,丈夫的疼爱。那已经很足够了。

Friday 14 September 2012

人做月子

人做月子,你做月子。
人,有丈夫,有家公家婆,又爸爸妈妈,有做月婆。
你,有自己和女儿。
自己煮做月餐。准备食物给女儿。洗衣晒衣。样样都自己来啦。
各有个命水,没得怨。

那老人家,处处都为她。
到后来,不领情,算了。
给她吃的,她却说留给**吃。
那也好,看她道后来就由他们来服侍。

你,要学会自私些。
不,亏的是自己。

懂得照顾自己和女儿,好好栽培她。

要走的始终会走

停顿在五周, he/she left. Done DNC this week considers 8 weeks. No more heartbeat seen. Confirm miss miscarriage or silent miscarriage. Total charges RM2305.05.

Record: 14/09/2012
Sunway medical centre
Dr Wong Pak Seng
From: 15:45-16:15

Thursday 13 September 2012

Since last

Since last week 6/9/2012 I got the result that fetus din grow well by rite 7w3d, but measured 5w5d with slow fetal heart rate. No spotting n no cramp or other symptoms that I going to miscarriage. Dr put me on proluton n cyclogest. Back in a week time for check up whether is healthy pregnancy.

14/9/2012 in the next 3 hours will got to know how. The nite before by rite I was really tired n can sleep well. Because of stupid ppl til mid nite stil not back n din cal at all, usually wil wake up if notice he din back yet.

Wake up about 12, at last he's back n just lying down rite in front of door after drank. Chinese says 何苦? really don't understand y all guys act like that. After long whole day busy with work n meeting till nite stil go for drink so cal company culture.

Man always say that we as wife din understand them, but did they think the other way round, do they understand us as their wife. Keep waiting n worrying at home. Their mind is work n earn money back. But do they put effort on how to secure their family n love wife n kids as well.

Non concern since last. What fault for me to go very stressful ivf to get us a baby. Why I need to work more n no time for my gal. This all came out in my mind since last week.

Wake up d at 2 whole nite house keeping n 抄写经书hope my baby will in good condition. Come n accompany mommy n jiejie so that jiejie din get bore playing herself.

Bless... But still leave to god for final...

Monday 27 August 2012

大男人。小女人

大男人要配的是小女人,而我偏不是什么的小女人。
宁愿孤单过单独的生活,也许生活会过得更精彩。
天天都是那句“你以为你真的大完"
人家LG 对自己刚怀孕的Lp 会特别迁就,他可不是,三两天必吵一轮。
他可想我忧郁,可想我三番四次和他吵。

去吧,滚取找你的小女人。

Sunday 26 August 2012

6weeks

Hah, oredi in 6 weeks. Update myself, had proluton this morning, 2 more jabs on 31/08/2012 n 4/9/2012. Next visit wil be 6/9/2012 by the time its oredi 7w3d n must detect strong HB.

When dr jabs this morning, he asked me how many more to go, n said it's not an easy journey.

Stil hope to see another sacs on the next visit. Since i m very confident that I had high beta hcg reading n both 2 embryos must survive.

Any how, all create by god. Must appreciate n happy with wat v have at the moment.

Thursday 23 August 2012

Next visit n today's memory

Next visit scheduled on 6 sept 2012 Thursday.

According to the system, due date wil be 25/04/2013.

今天的心情仿佛似今天的天气,恰好,不赖。给家公炖冬虫草鸡精,老早到巴刹去买鸡。

下回产检ANC7,7w3d。该可以看到宝宝的心跳。

给自己的格言,记载在以下的图片。人生是多么的短暂,不能太执着。

Saw a yolk sac

今天是5w3d,看到宝宝的Yolk sac,只看到一个,也许只有一个找床。一切都很好,暂时可放下心中大石。

昨天的生日都是匆忙的度过,嫣食物中毒,吐了两次。

今天,历史又从演。竟然一句「蠢」,却惹赖他人生气。手举了又句想往我的脸掴,实在暴力。

一句你最大,就想了事,更本不懂问题出现在哪里。刚刚经历试管婴儿,也刚刚再今早看到了宝宝。他都可以有此举动。

嫣道姑妈家过夜,今晚不晓得睡眠如何。这星期来总是睡不好,累(b_d)

Wednesday 15 August 2012

2ww pass date to test for beta hcg

2ww was passed, 14/08/2012 Tuesday date for me to test for beta hcg level. Woke up early in the morning, rush some order n prepare myself to sunfert. Bie brought yen to school n met me at sunfert as I need to take blood for test.
Ops, rain early in the morning terrible jam fr Puchong jaya to sunway.
After blood took at sunway lab. Just wait n while waiting I had done a pair of crochet shoes. About 10.30 nurse cal said result's out.....
Really anxious n bibbobbibbob... The rhythm of my heartbeat getting faster. In my heart, try to talk to guan yin niang niang not to worry.

This is 13dpt2dt result: 324.7mIU

Consider strong n good reading for pregnancy.

Whether singleton or twin, dr wong said have to wait till next visit which is schedule 23/08/2012 a day after my birthday...

It's consider a valuable birthday present for me d.

Tanx dr Wong n sunfert team(@_@)

Bie gave catherine rm300 for order domino pizza for lunch.

Today's charges:
RM650 for cyclogest 2 weeks supply n 3 proluton
RM113 for consultation fees n scan
RM50 fir blood test

Really happy with the result(b_d)

Sunday 5 August 2012

Work after one week break

Today have to start work after one week break for opu n ET. Only two classes for f5 n f4.

Today's guan yin dan, will bring yyen go guan yin temple. Hope guan yin bless two little blast develop n implant n grow.

Today consider day 5 after transfer on day 2 -1/8/2012. Blast suppose to hatch out n begin implant.

Forgot to record that, as explained by embryologist, 2 embryo had done assisted laser hatch about 25% to increase chances for implant. Hope it works.

Thursday 2 August 2012

ET DPT2 3/8/2012

Hah, is oredi 2 days 2 little bb in my uterus. If they grow n grow, now can should in blastocyst state I found some info regarding to the grow of embryo after day transferred.

For 3 days transfer

One
The embryo continues to grow and develop, turning from a 6-8 cell embryo into a morula
Two
The cells of the morula continue to divide, developing into a blastocyst
Three
The blastocyst begins to hatch out of its shell
Four
The blastocyst continues to hatch out of its shell and begins to attach itself to the uterus
Five
The blastocyst attaches deeper into the uterine lining, beginning implantation
Six
Implantation continues
Seven
Implantation is complete, cells that will eventually become the placenta and fetus have begun to develop
Eight
Human chorionic gonadotropin (hCG) starts to enter the blood stream
Nine
Fetal development continues and hCG continues to be secreted
Ten
Fetal development continues and hCG continues to be secreted
Eleven
Levels of hCG are now high enough to detect a pregnancy

Continue with cyclogest for 12 days after ET n pluloton in 3/8, 6/8 and 9/8.

Blood beta hcg schedule: 14/08/2012 Tuesday at 8.30am, result out after 2 hours

Had start crochet for customer so that pass smoothly, n next week have to back for tuition. One week break for them for my opu n ET. Hope it doesn't affect much on the result. Orders for crochet too aiya, near raya should a bit tight. Had inform customers so that can crochet slowly.

Yyen din go to school for 2 days n piano class as advise not to drive. Another class also need to absent is Saturday's art class. Till Monday then consider 5 days after transfer, then have to drive d.

Wednesday 1 August 2012

ET done

ET successfully done with 2 embryos grade 8-4cells and grade 7-2cells. Need more rest after ET. So lucky that can said 100% fertilized as only 2 follicles to collect oocytes. At last 2 matured with 2 embryos for ET. Tanx dr Wong n sunfert team. 2 embryos grade 8 with 4 cells n grade 7 with 2 cells on day 2. There'r some fragment on embryo grade 8. Hope this will not affect the grow of embryo. Hopefully embryos continue to grow n get implant soon. Blessing n blessing...

Monday 30 July 2012

Opu done

At last opu done at 10am this morning, dr manage to pick up 2 eggs size 18mm and 23mm.

Continue with the antibiotic after lunch n dinner 1tab each.

Nurse need to insert twice only manage to get my vessel

31-07-2012 Tuesday
Insert cyclogest 11am and 11pm
Inject im proluton 250mg in the morning any clinic

1-8-2012
ET schedule today at 12pm
Arrive sunfert at 11am

Schedule might change due to embryos development

On the day of ET, at 11am empty bladder completely n drink one glass 250mls of plain water.

Hold the bladder until transfer.

Remember to bring along the cyclogest

Today's charges: RM4400 paid by cimb master card

Thursday 26 July 2012

Opu confirmed

This is final stage of icsi treatment.
27/072012
Gonal-f 450iu 10.30am R
Humog 150iu 10pm L

28/07/2012 Saturday
Gonal-f 450iu 9am L
Cetrotide 9am R
Ovidrel 10pm R

29/07/2012 Sunday
Augmentin antibiotics after breakfast n after dinner one each
Dulcolax laxatives 2 tab 11pm sharp
Do not drink after 11pm

30/07/2012 Monday
OPU 10am
Reach there by 9am
Augmentin after lunch and after dinner

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At last only 2 follicles grow out of 3, one 19mm and other one only 12mm. God bless hope the small will catchup very fast. Matured enough for fertilize n further stage ET will successfully on

today's charges RM2000
Paid by cheque to dr Wong Pak Seng

Tuesday 24 July 2012

Jab in the car

How ar? I experienced it last night for humog jab about 8 in the car. Tuition finished at 8, need to pick up yen at 8.30pm. Jab done in the car before pick yen up.

Dhea doesn't work???

Just saw a forum said that dhea doesn't work for infertility, is that true? For me, not really work after i took dhea 100mg for 30days and 75mg for 21days total 51days. coz my quantity of follicle only 3 after dhea. Or may be too short period for intake of dhea? age only 32, going to 33, seem like my reproduction system going down like age of 52?53? Hopefully the follicles are in good quality so that i can successfully pickup and further ET for this cycle. Bless and Hope; )

refer to:-
humrep.oxfordjournals.org/content/e...

Monday 23 July 2012

Cetrotide 0.25mg

Jab to prevent ovulation... According to the nurse.

Another visit to sunfert

Second visit to sunfert 24/072012. Beautiful sunrise in the early morning. Follicles quantity checked, 3 on the left only right none. 1 sized 13mm, the other two smaller size about 8mm. Decide to continue even one follicle. Today's jab brought back...

24/07/2012 tuesday
Cetrotide 0.25mg 9am on R
Gonal f 450iu 9am on L
Humog 150iu 8.30pm on R

25/07/2012 wednesday
Cetrotide 0.25mg 7am on L
Gonal f 450iu 7am on R
Humog 150iu 7am on L

26/07/2012 Thursday
Cetrotide 0.25mg 7am on R
Gonal f 450iu 7am on L
Humog 150iu 7am on R

27/07/2012 Friday
Cetrotide 0.25mg 7am on L

Next appointment: 27/07/2012 Friday 8.20am

Today's charges: RM4000

Uterine lining: 7mm

All jab done for 4 days...

Finally last humog jab done, tomorrow follow the appointment to visit dr Wong for scan egg follicles quantity + uterine lining. Hopefully this time my egg follicles quantity increase. Hope this time will successfully bring me to another stage of life. It's wonderful without worries, happy go lucky. Just seek for luck, else only yyen really pity at her without other siblings. Blessing

Wednesday 18 July 2012

Review: Mensus delay a day...

Mensus delay a day... Visit me today, have to reschedule every task delay a day...
Gonal-F 450iu 20/07/2012 - 23/07/2012 Day
Humog 150iu 20/07/2012 - 23/07/2012 PM

20/07/2012
GF L/ HMG R
21/07/2012
GF R/ HMG L
22/07/2012
GF L/ HMG R
23/07/2012
GF R/ HMG L

Due to high dosage, hence have to separate the injections.

Stop dhea after 30 days 100mg and 21 days 75mg.

Payment RM 3500 - RM1264

Today's charges:
RM 2236 package
RM113 consultation

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Still waiting for mensus

Mensus suppose come today, but till now no signal yet. Need to see doctor tomorrow n consider 2nd day after mensus.... Aiii delay r?

Tuesday 17 July 2012

3rd attempt on ivf/icsi

July2012: 3rd attempt on IVF/ICSI(SunFert)

After try for IvF/ICSI beginning of 2012 twice. First with short protocol, stop after 5days Gonal-F. Second attempt with long protocol also end up with poor egg produce after 5days GF injection.

Schedule for July2012:
5July2012 - 14July2012 : Microgynon-30 1tab daily
18July2012 : expect mensus
19July2012 : scan S/C Gonal-F
23July2012 : scan egg follicles + uterine lining
26July2012 : further injection
30July2012 : EPU
1August2012 : ET

first and second attempt end with 5 days injection and how about this time?
Hopefully eveything going well and smooth...

mood swing these couple of days, alone most of the time. Yenn will be mommy's companion all the times. Realizes from a fren that children get further from us once they grow up. Must spend more and more time with yenn, else ...

that's y even there's order also i stop my hand and start blogging. This is wat i want to do since long time. Even after gave birth to yenn in 2008 till now. June 2012 yenn's blog set and now mommy's turn to set up blog.

脑袋空白的,很无奈.
人在做,天在看...真的吗????